Sunday, March 29, 2015

Endometriosis Awareness

Alright friends, I am going to get serious for a little bit here. This post is dedicated to awareness for a disease that affects approximately 176 million women and girls worldwide. This disease is usually misdiagnosed. Also, it takes the average woman EIGHT YEARS from their first doctor's appointment  for their symptoms to get an accurate diagnosis. There is no cure for this disease and there is also very limited treatment outside of surgery. This disease is Endometriosis. If you get grossed out about "women's issues" then you probably shouldn't read this post....so you have been warned. 

What is Endometriosis you ask.....".Endometriosis is a painful, chronic disease that affects at least 6.3 million women and girls in the U.S., 1 million in Canada, and millions more worldwide. It occurs when tissue like that which lines the uterus (tissue called the endometrium) is found outside the uterus -- usually in the abdomen on the ovaries, fallopian tubes, and ligaments that support the uterus; the area between the vagina and rectum; the outer surface of the uterus; and the lining of the pelvic cavity. Other sites for these endometrial growths may include the bladder, bowel, vagina, cervix, vulva, and in abdominal surgical scars. Less commonly they are found in the lung, arm, thigh, and other locations.
This misplaced tissue develops into growths or lesions which respond to the menstrual cycle in the same way that the tissue of the uterine lining does: each month the tissue builds up, breaks down, and sheds. Menstrual blood flows from the uterus and out of the body through the vagina, but the blood and tissue shed from endometrial growths has no way of leaving the body. This results in internal bleeding, breakdown of the blood and tissue from the lesions, and inflammation -- and can cause pain, infertility, scar tissue formation, adhesions, and bowel problems." - http://www.endometriosisassn.org/ 




Needless to say, it can be an extremely painful and debilitating disease. This is an issue that affects millions of women everyday but it is seldom talked about all because it has to do with a woman's reproductive organs. Not only is this disease the number one cause for infertility in females but it can be so severe that it prevents a woman from living a normal life. The pain can be so bad that work is missed or going to a family event isn't even an option.


I want to tell you a story....my story....I was 16 and missing school during my period because it made me sick to me stomach because the pain was so bad. Besides the pain I had classic Endo symptoms. I when to a doctor who told me  that it was "normal" and dismissed my pain as "typical female problems". He put me on the pill to help "even me out." Fast forward three years later, I am switching birth control and I tell three different OB/GYNs about my past issues. All of them tell me they are normal. Two years later, I am happily married and ready to start a family. Months and months go by and no pregnancy. Eventually those months turn into a year and a half. I again find myself sitting in a doctor's office where I am told again that my symptoms are normal and there is no way they affect my fertility. A year later, I am diagnosed with "unexplained infertility" and still not pregnant. Finally, I find a doctor who thinks differently. A surgery is scheduled and the diagnosis of Endometriosis is suggested. After, eight years of doctor appointments and blood tests the diagnosis of Endometriosis is confirmed. 

This is my story. And it is not an abnormal story. Most women see several doctor's before they receive a diagnosis. And most of those doctors dismiss their pain. I have been told that it is normal and to basically suck it up because every girl goes through this. But guess what? Not every girl goes through this. 

So why am I even writing this post? March is Endometriosis Awareness Month. Also, Endo is a chronic disease, meaning it doesn't go away. To be honest, I didn't know much about it until I was diagnosed. And I think it is a safe bet to say that there are a lot of people out there who didn't even know something like this existed. If you are reading this, then hopefully you now know what it is. It is quite possible that you will know someone who is has it, a friend, sister, spouse, mother, or aunt. Don't dismiss it. Just because you can't see it doesn't mean it isn't there and just because I try hard to hide my pain doesn't mean that it isn't there either. This is a very real disease. Want more info? Here is a good place to get started...Women's Health, Endometriosis.  

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

Guess What....We Moved!

Well, it is officially official. We are now living in Utah. To be quite honest. a few months ago I didn't think I would ever be typing those words. I have a lot of mixed feelings about this move. It has definitely been the hardest move I have ever made and that is saying a lot since Zac and I have moved around quite a bit.
Zac and I had both been praying the last several months that Zac would be able to know if he should try to find a new job. He wasn't very happy in his current one and we both really wanted to stay in the Seattle area. So when Zac was contacted by CoreBrace, I knew that this was an answer to a pray. Not the answer I wanted but I knew that Zac should take it.
I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about why I am having such a hard time with Utah. And I think I figured it out. As many of you know, Zac and I have been wanting to start a family for over three years now. The first year, we weren't concerned that there was anything wrong, then the second year hit. We were living in San Diego at the time. That year was brutal. I was not happy. I was heartbroken. I cried almost everyday, I couldn't stand to see pictures of new babies or pregnant women. I left multiple baby showers early and in tears because of the pain. I had no idea why I couldn't get pregnant and I had no friends close by who knew what it was like. Then we moved.
While in Seattle, I discovered the reason why. And I made some of the best friends a girl could ask for. These friends knew what I was going through as they knew themselves what it was like. We could all relate and lean on each other for support. I clung to their friendship and for the first time in over a year, I felt happy and at peace with my situation. I felt that even though I didn't know if I would ever have a family that is was okay for me to be happy.
Leaving them behind when we moved was so hard. I was worried and scared that without them I would fall back into unhappiness. That I wouldn't be able to make new friends and that without their support I wasn't quite sure what I was going to do.
But I see now that Heavenly Father placed those incredible women in my life right when I needed them the most. They will always be my friends. And because of them I am stronger and can face a new place that has so many young mothers and pregnant women. I don't think I could have ever faced Utah without first having lived in Seattle.
There are some really great things about living here though. For one, I have a sister so close, less than five minutes away, close. I am so grateful to have Elise and her family so close. Nothing quite beats having a sister nearby. I am also so much closer to home and my parents. Also, due to lower cost of living and Zac's new job, we are going to be able to pursue a few dreams in the near future that we didn't even think were possibilities before such as buying a house. Zac and I have a lot to be grateful for. I am excited to face this new adventure with my best friend by my side.

First day of work!

First snow

I have missed the mountains